Exclusively By Izzah Johan


Through the month of august this year 2008 give me lots of lesson of life
many things happen n change my life a lot....
many tears... sadness... lonely... but all this thing make a new me.....
make me more matured and teach me to be a human...
i never think all happen this month as something bad to me
yap even its like disaster and make me fall n crash badly....
but i need to wake up....yap need to wake up....

now I'm alone... he decide to let me go....ok.. don't want to comment more bout it
enough... what ever past is past... but one thing doesn't change...
my love to him will remain the same not even 1% change... i will loving him till the end of my life.... till Allah change it... there still u in my heart for now.
I STILL LOVE U

second thing.... my grandpa past away 20th aug 2008....
very sad moment... even i know he will go to meet Allah but not this soon...
that's takdir... i must accept it.. it good for him... all of our family do not want to see him suffer better Allah take him.... because we love him so much... allhamdulillah Allah love him more...
what we can do just pray for his happiness up there with Allah....
may b sooner or later is our time to see Allah. there is the time but don't know when....
yap...I'm really2 sad... I'm just feel the emptiness and alone....
i don't have someone to share this feeling...may b before this when my grandma past away (5th Feb 2008) his with me n make calm... and always support me... but now I'm alone... may b that what i feel losing something n my soul.

erm... with all this thing i just doesn't feel that august is actually to the end and september will come with 'Ramadhan al mubarak' alhamdulillah... hope the ramadhan make me feel more better.... n i want to celebrate my ramadhan... i want to be near back to Allah...
may b after all this thing happen is to remind me to come back to HIM.... after too far forgetting him.... It just because Allah still love me.... even there no more love of human (guy) but i still have others love.... lots of love... so i should not stop giving love to every one family friends.... do something good there's rewards that Allah will give soon... Even not in this world may b soon at 'akhirat' we don't know.....

i realize that im not that good or perfect person....
i always make mistake....even to every one...
forgive me for all i have done.... give me time to correct my mistake....
guide me for not doing the mistake again... give me a chance....
I'm just an ordinary gurl....